Words from Dr. House, Start the treatment. Depression, Desperation, Delusion, a long list. I got really serious problems with myself, why nobody told me that before? I convince that is something about genetics.
Damn. Why I am going through what "she" went through and struggling to create a new personality?! Damn!
I am going to New York for Christmas. Hope that will make me better.

我开始无边无际的沮丧和绝望，不知道为什么，或是不愿意去想。几小时几小时的发呆，或是短暂的记忆流失。我想睡一个沉沉的午觉。或是把时间的闹钟按停，让我想想，仔细想想自己是谁，从哪里来，要去哪里。