NYC 409 FINALE 向着正能量

2012年没什么特别好回顾的。生活颠簸波折,心情焦虑大喜大悲。春夏秋冬,街道商店,地铁公车,自己家里别人家里,连梦里都嚎啕大哭地过了一年。新年伊始就危机重重,一月的Master Degree Referral到四月底的oral exam,脑神经断掉无数哭到泪腺干涸。五月运气衰的折腾申请日本签证。6月7月养生期间也哭无数次,从畅快淋漓到莫名其妙。8月回国乱哄哄各种大哭。9月回纽约找公寓节外生枝又折腾一个月。10月混沌教书手忙脚乱,11月还没过明白时,接二连三的晴天霹雳批到12月中旬,差点连过完12月的勇气都消失殆尽。即使年末沾妹妹一点喜气儿,年关的一个大deadlines拖的我焦虑抑郁失眠总爆发。

出国以来我就不太记得每一年的跨年是怎么过的。我不喜欢party也讨厌热闹,越到节日性格越别扭越冷清。一般圣诞节过后我就嗜睡,年末年初基本睡掉两天。2012年12月31日寒夜,我和高个子的Julie快步走在Park Ave上,偶尔交换一两句不咸不淡的话,余下疏疏落落的影子昏黄的路灯下一路平行,远处传来稀稀落落的烟火声,身边掠过成群的兴高采烈的戴着彩色高纸帽的男女老少。

不管这是不是我想要的或是计划的,现在的我是这样子的有着这样的习惯过着这样子的生活。孤僻,阴郁,冷漠,朋友极少,却也有和我不说话走长路的同伴。Julie一天和我说,my parents always ask me what you are going to do for the new year eve, are you going anywhere.. but you know, i have Rick and you and it’s perfect.我一笑,so if i have my Rick, everything would be perfect.

2013年,希望运气平顺一些,少哭一点。2月论文开题答辩,3月旅行,4月收offer,一切向着正能量。戒酒,戒暴食,戒垃圾电视。再更新就是第五季。

一月主题:Deadline 集锦

1/2 Grading Deadline DONE

1/5 Translation Deadline 10 pages DONE late for two days

1/7 Japanese Article Deadline 10 pages in academic Japanese DONE Feb.20th

1/10 Proposal Deadline 10 pages in academic EnglishDONE Feb.26th DRAGGED!

1/18 Teaching Application Due FAILED

1/25 Journal Article Deadline 4 pages in academic English DONE on time

1/31 Workshop Proposal Deadline 2 pages in academic english FAILED

1/31 Application for Conference in Thailand Expenses 2 pages

其它工作: Dissertation Defense Professors (1/10); Teaching (start from 1/23);

生活杂事:Hair Salon (1/21); Thailand Ticket (1/28); Gym 92Y Card (1/20); Emails; Guggenheim (1/23)FAILED;

Rewards: SW Boots/Camper Flats/Iphone4/MetOpera/Le Miserable/

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About GloriaYuYANG

art historian, writer, a dog person, NYC-resident (not new yorker), a ph.d student of Japanese art and architecture,
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